好耐都冇諗過d唔開心既事…但係呢排又再次開始諗番…今日返返下工…突然間諗番好多野…亦諗到我第5個故事…不過今次好長…因為係關於我



阿寶係我生活裡面其中1個最重要既女仔…係佢令我由一個好花心好鍾意玩女仔好唔定既生活…將我轉變成一個好定…好專一唔再花心唔再周圍玩既男朋友…亦都係我第一次去真正為一個女仔去付出…同佢一齊既開頭…我地都好好…一齊返學…等佢放學…我越黎越錫佢…對佢越黎越好…但到後來慢慢感覺到佢淡左…而且對我亦開始差左…到我18歲既生日…佢特登走堂去買左個生日蛋糕俾我…我完全無諗過佢會咁做…果一刻真係我人生裡面最開心既時候…我地2個人係九龍公園慢慢食個蛋糕…慢慢傾計…真係覺得好幸福…但係呢日既幸福變成最後既一日…



有一日…
“我見番之前男朋友呀…仲同佢講左一陣”… “係咩…咁你對佢仲有冇野”

“傻架…緊係冇啦…朋友之ma”



呢一日之後…阿寶足足失蹤左一個月…打俾佢冇人聽...學校搵佢又避開我…1個月之後佢突然間打番俾我

“你做乜唔搵我呀?”… “好似係我打極俾你都搵唔到你…學校搵你你又避開我”… “係咩?...冇呀…你唔係話叫我陪你同你d friend去海洋公園咩”… “我諗住你成個月都避開我都係想同我散…所以我自己一個同佢地4pair人去左”… “我都冇失蹤…我以為你忙之ma…我仲係你女朋友黎架”…雖然個籍口係有d勉強…但係我都係當冇事發生繼續一齊…但之後大家都冇再點見面…街都冇出過…



“阿基…我入左醫院呀”… “咁我依家過黎即刻陪你”…收左線之後即刻係tst學校搭車趕去醫院…見佢訓得咁舒服我都唔想嘈醒佢…唯有俾佢q住我隻手訓啦…足足訓左3個鐘…我隻手已經痺到冇晒知覺…到晚飯既時候…佢又發佢既小姐脾氣… “d野咁難食點食呀”…但係可能佢都太累太肚餓…我慢慢餵佢都肯食…食完之後就繼續訓…而且我就等到佢媽咪黎先走…到第2日我又走醫院探佢…但係佢見到我之後同佢媽咪講 “我唔想見到佢…我去沖涼…叫佢走啦”…之後就大大力關門…我企係門口呆左…只係放低買俾佢既野就走…



“阿基…我依家好肚餓呀”…傾傾下電話既時候佢突然間話肚餓…咁我就第一時間買消夜去佢屋企… “我係你屋企門口喇”… “你放低啦…我會開門自己拎…你走啦…我唔想見到你”



“你放工喇?...駛唔駛我過黎接你收工呀?...今晚我地去邊?” 係我同阿寶行緊街既時候…阿寶聽左一個電話…之後不停望錶… “你係咪趕時間要走呀?”… “係呀…你知我屋企人唔俾我去得夜架啦”… “但你今晚唔係屋企冇人咩?”… “係呀…咁佢地會打電話返黎”… “咁我送你返去啦”

“尋晚我同個男仔係屋企樓下傾通消呀…係朝早太眼訓先一齊上去訓左陣”



“阿基…你同阿寶散左未呀?...仲未呀?...我地問左你成2個月…日日都問你都仲未散?...我知你好愛佢…亦都見到你為佢真係付出好多…而且成個人都變得好好…就係因為咁…你依家身邊都唔少女仔鍾意你啦…點解你仲要為左1個唔愛你同對你咁差既人咁樣…日日都好似死人咁…為乜?’’…為乜?...我都問我自己… “因為我愛佢”



“其實我地依家仲算唔算拍緊拖呢?”… “你想點呀?…我依家同d friend唱緊k呀”… “不如分手”… “我都話玩緊…唔好阻住我…呢d野留番今晚先講啦”…之後我一個人拎住部電話…眼淚慢慢一滴一滴跌落地下…夜晚正式分手…



仍然難禁看著你這個壞人　有什麼的吸引
殘酷至此更讓我想靠近
心知要換個別人還是有人

如同前世欠下你的吻　還怎麼敢怒憤
已習慣親朋好友問我怎會為你等
學會講只因這種狠深得我心

喜歡你讓我下沉　喜歡你讓我哭
能持續獲得糟蹋亦滿足
喜歡你待我薄情　喜歡你為人冷酷
若是你也發現　你也喜歡虧待我
我就讓你永遠痛愛著我



3個月…呢3個月日日不停諗住阿寶…終於我認唔住打番電話俾佢…

“你點呀?...拍拖拍得開唔開心呀?”… “你都唔要我…我邊有拖拍”… “你冇拍拖咩?...其實可唔可以俾多次機會我地?”… “係你之前要分手之ma…我都冇諗過”…由呢日開始…我地又一齊番…唔知係咪連個天都唔想我地一齊呢…返到屋企先發現美國世貿大廈俾人炸左落黎…呢日就係 9.11



“聖誕節唔駛約我喇…我約左我d friend唔得閒陪你”阿寶打黎…結果聖誕節阿寶同左第2個男仔過...我就同d friend一齊過

“你係邊呀…我係蘭桂芳呀…不如我過黎搵你”…由10點等到倒數完…再等到我3點出番旺角阿寶都係未出現過... 打俾阿寶...佢話“我依家同d friend去唱k呀…不如你係下面坐陣…等到我6點唱完接我啦”



有一日行街既時候…面對面見到阿寶拖住另一個男仔…我地既愛情亦都正式完結



我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道 你沒有捨不得
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著我 也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開

你要我說多難堪 我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份 包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多 我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開 我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份 安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你 是因為我太愛你



雖然同阿寶分開左…但係我地仍然keep住係朋友…每次佢唔開心都會搵我…我都會幫佢分擔…雖然個心好痛…但係我都想佢幸福… “雖然我仍然係好愛你…但係只要你幸福開心…我唔介意退後一步…我會默默保護你…我會等你”…唔經唔覺又2年…有一晚半夜… “阿基…我一個人出左去tst海旁…byebye”…收左線之後我第一時間換衫出去跑晒成個海旁…終於搵到佢…但係就係果晚…我知道我再做任何事都係白廢…



係呢3,4年裡面…因為分左手既關係…令我性格大變…由好樂觀好鍾意笑…變到唔識講野唔識笑…仲自閉左9個月冇搵過任何人…淨係識飲酒…飲到個胃損…發燒都繼續飲…飲到氣管收縮…分手之後既聖誕節同除夕到依家我都係選擇自己1個人過...不過我都多謝佢令我知道愛1個人係點…亦都多謝佢講俾我聽點解分手… “你對我太多…你太好人喇…做男朋友咁好冇用架”



之後都曾經同唔同既女仔拍拖…但係始終冇愛咁既感覺…到後來有1個…開始慢慢可以放開個心出黎愛既時候…係間bar門口見住佢攬住第2條仔錫…之後到yoko…佢最後同我講既都係 “你對我太好…你太好人喇…做男朋友咁好冇用架”
可能佢地講得岩啦…我唔愛既可以好衰…但係我冇可能對住我愛既人衰…或者我唔應該再愛啦…



誰來愛我　小心愛錯　以免彼此無助
還能熱戀誰　誰能受得起那麼多
為何拿著我消磨
誰來愛我　請好好對我
猶如拿懾著星火　認真的我
花開了總想結果　才令你閃身掠過
不懂得愛　不懂得我　別親我



人失去靈魂之後淨下肉身…就變成死人長埋地下…而愛情失去靈魂之後…有些人會變成公式化既生活…而我寧願選舉將失去靈魂既愛情長埋地下…直至有一日靈魂重新出現…



In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah

I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed
I was lost, oh yeah

Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Yeah, how long must you pay for him?
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?

I was scared, I was scared
Tired and underprepared
But I wait for you

If you go, if you go
Leaving me here on my own
Well I wait for you

Yeah, how long must you wait for him?
Yeah, how long must you pay for him?
Yeah, how long must you wait for him?

Please, please, please
Come on and sing to me
To me, me

Come on and sing it out, out, out
Come on and sing it now, now, now
Come on and sing it

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah
Oh yeah